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OK, so I recently had one of those *FUCKING* epiphanies that means I have to move out of my comfort zone and deal with some crap. Bleah!
First, although the work I've been doing transcribing all those reams of information is necessary and important (especially for me, because now I actually have the material in usable form --or almost. T is editing...and editing...and editing.), I've also been using it to dodge stuff that I need to do for myself. I know, I can see the shock and surprise on everyone's face from here. Obviously, I need to finish the project, but I need to step away from the obsessive part of it.
Second, I need to clean things out...make a couple of real changes instead of just throwing things into another empty room. This is both literal and figurative. It's kind of scary how much clutter I've accumulated. I'm feeling trapped and impotent, in more way than one. I need to look at my "stuff" and make a few decisions about what can go and what can stay, and try to keep things that feed my soul and don't engulf it.
I think I've come up with some New Moon vows for the next several months, mostly to do with making room in my home (and maybe life) for new possibilities. I've made a start. I'm working on cleaning out the computer room, and getting rid of the *comfy* chairs. Unfortunately, at least one of them isn't actually terribly usable, since Munchkin peed all over it on more than one occasion. It's so past time to let that one go. The other one has been peed on as well, but also shredded by Munch, Merlin and now Odhinn. V&M are coming over tomorrow to help me move them. YAY! I've also done some organizing and clearing out of stuff. There's still a lot to do in this little room, but it's feeling a little less claustrophobic already.
Then, I need to start tackling the book cases. Then the back room/work room, then my closet. I need to break all this down into baby steps, so I don't freak out and run away. Hell, I may still freak out and run away. I'm a pack rat, not a minimalist, by nature.
I've also almost completed the first in a series of three classes I'm writing, and have ideas for the other two. And I need to do some more work on my presentation for P-Con. Most of it is already in my head, but I need to organize it and outline it.
Fucking epiphanies! I really just want a nap.
First, although the work I've been doing transcribing all those reams of information is necessary and important (especially for me, because now I actually have the material in usable form --or almost. T is editing...and editing...and editing.), I've also been using it to dodge stuff that I need to do for myself. I know, I can see the shock and surprise on everyone's face from here.
Second, I need to clean things out...make a couple of real changes instead of just throwing things into another empty room. This is both literal and figurative. It's kind of scary how much clutter I've accumulated. I'm feeling trapped and impotent, in more way than one. I need to look at my "stuff" and make a few decisions about what can go and what can stay, and try to keep things that feed my soul and don't engulf it.
I think I've come up with some New Moon vows for the next several months, mostly to do with making room in my home (and maybe life) for new possibilities. I've made a start. I'm working on cleaning out the computer room, and getting rid of the *comfy* chairs. Unfortunately, at least one of them isn't actually terribly usable, since Munchkin peed all over it on more than one occasion. It's so past time to let that one go. The other one has been peed on as well, but also shredded by Munch, Merlin and now Odhinn. V&M are coming over tomorrow to help me move them. YAY! I've also done some organizing and clearing out of stuff. There's still a lot to do in this little room, but it's feeling a little less claustrophobic already.
Then, I need to start tackling the book cases. Then the back room/work room, then my closet. I need to break all this down into baby steps, so I don't freak out and run away. Hell, I may still freak out and run away. I'm a pack rat, not a minimalist, by nature.
I've also almost completed the first in a series of three classes I'm writing, and have ideas for the other two. And I need to do some more work on my presentation for P-Con. Most of it is already in my head, but I need to organize it and outline it.
Fucking epiphanies! I really just want a nap.
