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More and more I think that I probably have some sort of sleep disorder. Of course, I currently have no insurance nor can I afford an actual sleep study, but the more I read about sleep disorders the more I see some of my own patterns.
I have trouble FALLING asleep if there's any light in the room. Which means when my fan's in the window and my next door neighbor leaves his porch light on all night (which is every night), it takes forever for me to fall asleep. Even when I have the windows closed and the air conditioner on, it's digital and there're little lights that irritate me. And, of course, in summer when the days are long -- don't even get me started.
But then there's also the waking up from a sound sleep. I wake up on an average of 2-3 times a night. And the smallest thing will wake me up, and then I can't get back to sleep.
But I think the worst of all are the panic wake ups. I have several of those per week. Where I sit bolt upright in a complete panic with all kinds of adrenaline running through my veins. I don't THINK they're dream related, but I rarely remember my dreams. Although there was a fragment of a rather strange one recently involving a pagan convention and Bill Clinton... Those panic wake ups usually happen somewhere between 1:30 and 3:30 am.
No wonder I get so tired sometimes.
I suspect that it's connected with breathing, and that I have some form of sleep apnea... but again I come back to the No Insurance problem. I also find that I have a tendency to hold my breath A LOT. Not on purpose, mind you. But suddenly I notice that I've been holding my breath. I try to work on breathing conciously, but have limited success.
I wish I could find some answers.
I have trouble FALLING asleep if there's any light in the room. Which means when my fan's in the window and my next door neighbor leaves his porch light on all night (which is every night), it takes forever for me to fall asleep. Even when I have the windows closed and the air conditioner on, it's digital and there're little lights that irritate me. And, of course, in summer when the days are long -- don't even get me started.
But then there's also the waking up from a sound sleep. I wake up on an average of 2-3 times a night. And the smallest thing will wake me up, and then I can't get back to sleep.
But I think the worst of all are the panic wake ups. I have several of those per week. Where I sit bolt upright in a complete panic with all kinds of adrenaline running through my veins. I don't THINK they're dream related, but I rarely remember my dreams. Although there was a fragment of a rather strange one recently involving a pagan convention and Bill Clinton... Those panic wake ups usually happen somewhere between 1:30 and 3:30 am.
No wonder I get so tired sometimes.
I suspect that it's connected with breathing, and that I have some form of sleep apnea... but again I come back to the No Insurance problem. I also find that I have a tendency to hold my breath A LOT. Not on purpose, mind you. But suddenly I notice that I've been holding my breath. I try to work on breathing conciously, but have limited success.
I wish I could find some answers.
